Drifting Away

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

I apologise to my reader base, it only seems that I use this blog for one purpose now.

The very city that has housed and raised me for the past 17 years has become a burden.
It has very little to offer me. I must go.

My support network has lost another thread, it's pretty god damn threadbare. It's not strong enough to support me.

I am unraveling, the stress is far too much. I'm losing it mentally and physically. I am constantly exhausted, but I cant sleep. I cant concentrate on anything and I constantly feel like crying or lashing out. All the tensity is in my shoulders.

I have been betrayed, I have betrayed. I want to forgive and I want to move onwards. My behaviors are self destructive. Who is this unfamiliar person that lurks within me? Why do I hate myself so much right now?

I love Corey so much that I'm making myself sick.

I'm scared, so very scared.